Being at His disposal

We all have times where we are pressured and consumed with future decisions. They happen more times than we would like for them to and its not easy to stop thinking about them. I keep asking myself, "What am I going to do for the rest of my life? Will I actually use my Elementary Education major? Should I be looking into psychology or counseling? And what about after that?!" I'm just not so sure. I am praying for clarity... actually I would really like for God just to tell me straight up, but then again where is my faith in His perfect plan in that. What He has given me right now is a peace. He is not leading me anywhere else and though I question at times, that peace keeps me where I am. He is sovereign and keeps bringing to mind "Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself." (Matt. 6:34) My major is not my own and my time is not my own and as long as I am willing to be an empty vessel, He will use me where I am and lead me to where I will go. "Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its sorrow, it empties today of its strengths." -Corrie Ten Boom

Today, those questions consumed the first few moments of my morning, but as I opened up to read Keep a Quiet Heart the Lord swayed each one of them. Elisabeth Elliot was writing to individuals who had questions concerning their callings. She replied with, "The first thing was to settle once and for all the supremacy of Christ in my life. I put myself utterly and forever at His disposal, which means turning over all rights to myself, my body, my self-image, my notions of how I am to serve my Master." Oswald Chambers calls it, "Breaking the husk of of my independence of God." If our object is to save others, we cannot save ourselves. Being at His disposal shouldn't mean fear--we are under the complete control of a sovereign God that loves us and I could not think of anywhere that would have more joy and peace.

I keep reminding myself of this true statement. Since when has anything ever surrendered to God been wasted? Never. A life surrendered is a life He can use--A life worth of living.